I've had years of being single, or in non-committal relationships, neglecting dating/love and giving up on anyone wanting me because of 'issues' that sometimes feel like they are too big for even me to contend with, let alone anyone else. As the years have passed I have never felt like I needed someone. At times I have felt like I've wanted someone to be there. Someone who sees me wholly, is curious about why I am the way I am, and wants to get to know every side of me not just the positive, excitable, happy me but the me who gets emotional, the me who hides herself away because the world feels too much at times, or the me who gets overwhelmingly sad at times.
I wouldn't describe myself as someone who shys away from fear or doing scary things, but when it comes to relationships, taking a risk on heartbreak feels way scarier than hurling myself out a plane or jumping off a wind turbine. I find it easy to show the me that is happy, optimistic, funny, fearless and thriving in life, It takes real courage to revealing your vulnerabilities.
Spending time with an incredible human recently has made me feel stronger and brave enough to share all the sides of me. I have opened my heart to love and to a relationship, not because I need someone, but because with them I feel ready.
By Maggie Martin
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