I wish I knew

I wish I knew, in those early days,

my whole future was right there in your gaze.

I wish I knew how much you'd matter,

how much I'd love you, how life would get better.

When two becomes one, life can change in a flash.

Fear comes from falling, not wanting to crash.

Scars, bruises, wounds cut deeper than skin,

battling ghosts, words that sting.

Dark thoughts linger, disguised in plain sight,

deceptively reflecting a mirror of light.

Carrying a burden, weighted with fear,

a lonely prison filled with silent tears.

Sometimes finding heaven, you have to go through hell,

but struggles lead to strength, with many a tale to tell.

A revelation hit me in the deep of the night,

a chilling walk through darkness switched on the brightest light.

You saw through the sparkle and held me through pain.

Everything to lose, plenty to gain,

you came with forgiveness when I'd got it so wrong,

and loved me even harder with all my glitter gone.

Relationships come in stages,

you learn and then grow,

opening old wounds and learning to sew.

Our seams growing stronger as we tinker and we mend,

'cause life with you is worth it—we always get there in the end.

So listen well and listen wise,

'cause it took too long for me to realise

safety isn't fleeing,

I have no need to hide.

My future through life

is right by your side.