I Waited

 I Waited...

I stayed single, 

until I knew the difference

between attention that sparkled and faded

and affection that stayed when the screen went dark.

I waited until I no longer needed

someone else's words

to prove I was worthy.

I already was.

The love I gave my children,

the strength it took to rise each morning,

the peace I was building brick by brick

that was my proof.

I stayed single

until my life felt full

in the quiet moments,

until my home held laughter,

my weekends held joy,

my heart held calm.

I didn't wait for rescue.

I became my own arriving.

I stayed single

until the wounds had closed,

until I could speak of the past

without bleeding,

without bitterness,

without needing to convince myself

it wasn't that bad.

I waited until my boundaries

were not walls, but gates

ones I opened and closed

without guilt,

without fear,

without hesitation

when someone forgot

I was sacred.

I stayed single

until my children saw me

choosing peace over chaos,

teaching them by living it,

what love looks like,

what it feels like,

what they should never settle for.

I waited for the steady kind.

The kind that doesn't compete

with my peace,

but protects it.

The kind that feels like calm,

like safety,

like coming home

to a home I'd already built.

When that love came,

it didn't complete me

I was already whole.

It simply walked beside me,

steady and sure,

into the life I'd created

whilst I was brave enough

to wait. 

The Wild Colours of Us

We live and love in wild colours,

no half-measures, no pale imitations.

Passion isn't gentle here, it's a full blaze,

the kind that warms and sometimes scorches.

We are friction and laughter intertwined,

learning through the sparks we strike,

expanding in the space where chaos

kisses calm and neither wins.

You are a force I cannot tame,

nor would I want to!

and learning to let you burn bright

whilst keeping my own roots deep

is its own exquisite work.

We move differently, you and I,

but the push between us is not division,

it's the call to stretch, to rise,

to meet each other, changed.

I'm grateful for the whole of it,

the beauty and the mess, 

the fire and the play,

the way we always, somehow,

find our way back home to love.

We're learning new love languages,

softer words for harder moments,

tools to hold each other through the heat,

to listen deeper, stay longer,

to choose each other, again and again.

And I'm proud of that.

Proud of how we keep showing up,

how we meet in the wild middle

and refuse to let go of each other ❤️

Nearly one year on...

A year ago, I wasn't looking. Wasn't interested. Had no intention of letting anyone in. Funny how life works, isn't it?

Then the universe decided to prove me spectacularly wrong.

Sometimes the best things in life are the ones we never see coming. The unexpected plot twists that completely rewrite our story. The people who show up when we least expect it and somehow become everything we didn't know we needed.

We're not your conventional couple, and that's exactly how it should be. His weird matches my weird in ways I never knew were possible. We make perfect sense in our beautifully chaotic way.

Here's to the unexpected. To letting life surprise us. To finding someone whose brand of strange fits perfectly with yours. To saying "I wasn't looking" and then finding exactly what you didn't know you needed.

Life's funny like that. And I wouldn't change a single thing. 💛 

Enough

Enough

I am not a polished stone,  

smooth and gleaming in the light

I am rough around the edges,  

full of flaws that catch the sight.

My words sometimes stumble,  

my steps don't always land,  

I carry doubt like pebbles  

in the hollow of my hand.

But in this sweet imperfection,  

in these cracks where love seeps through,  

I find I am sufficient

broken, beautiful, and true.

For perfect is a prison  

that no soul was meant to fill.  

I am enough, just as I am,  

and I think I always will.

We will always be ok

We Will Always Be Ok - Remember this on your darkest days, and let it bring light.

When the shadows lengthen across our path,

And doubt creeps in like an evening mist,

When storms rage fierce and our voices clash,

Hold fast to this... we will persist.

Through sleepless nights and heavy days,

When hope seems gone and you're feeling raw,

Remember our love always finds ways

to kindle flames, they're worth fighting for.

In quiet moments, hand in hand,

we'll weather both gales and gentle rain,

Together we will always stand,

Through joy and sorrow, loss and gain.

So if the world feels cold and grey,

And darkness threatens to take hold,

Let these words chase your fears away...

We will always be ok, you're my heart, my life, my soul.

Love like ours runs deep and true,

A constant star in quickly shifting skies,

Whatever comes, we'll see it through

Together, our love will never die.

When nothing makes sense

The biscuit tin's gone fishing with a purple Thursday,

While my kettle's having words with the neighbour's cat.

The postman delivered seventeen clouds today,

And I've hung my umbrella on a bowler hat.

My wellies are discussing quantum physics,

With a marmalade jar that speaks Welsh.

The garden gate's gone off to join the circus,

And my teacup's writing novels on the shelf.

The weather forecast called for scrambled eggs,

But all we got was sideways-falling rain.

My bicycle's developed chicken legs,

And the bus stop's gone completely mad again.

So I'll pop the kettle on for half past blue,

And wait for sense to knock upon my door...

Though knowing luck, it'll likely be a shoe

That's come to hoover the
crumbs up off the floor.

I wish I knew

I wish I knew, in those early days,

my whole future was right there in your gaze.

I wish I knew how much you'd matter,

how much I'd love you, how life would get better.

When two becomes one, life can change in a flash.

Fear comes from falling, not wanting to crash.

Scars, bruises, wounds cut deeper than skin,

battling ghosts, words that sting.

Dark thoughts linger, disguised in plain sight,

deceptively reflecting a mirror of light.

Carrying a burden, weighted with fear,

a lonely prison filled with silent tears.

Sometimes finding heaven, you have to go through hell,

but struggles lead to strength, with many a tale to tell.

A revelation hit me in the deep of the night,

a chilling walk through darkness switched on the brightest light.

You saw through the sparkle and held me through pain.

Everything to lose, plenty to gain,

you came with forgiveness when I'd got it so wrong,

and loved me even harder with all my glitter gone.

Relationships come in stages,

you learn and then grow,

opening old wounds and learning to sew.

Our seams growing stronger as we tinker and we mend,

'cause life with you is worth it—we always get there in the end.

So listen well and listen wise,

'cause it took too long for me to realise

safety isn't fleeing,

I have no need to hide.

My future through life

is right by your side.